Ive been wondering lately…actually for quite some time now, how do you know when you have found who you are supposed to be? Honestly, what the fuck does that mean? Everything in the world is all made up…not real, so how can there be a “supposed to be”? we could all be completely different if only one thing in history was changed; nothing is actually “supposed to be” everything could be a different way. Did you know that the Chinese were first to start a voyage to North America? They actually came into contact with Columbus on the way, but something happened on the way (no one knows) and they never made it. If they did make it then Americans would all be speaking Chinese, we would all have different beliefs, values, and religions than what we have today. So there is no “supposed to be” we could change anything about ourselves whether it be the way we look, speak, or even the career path we have chosen to go down. There should never be a “supposed to be” because that just stops people from becoming someone they would actually like better. We should never stay on one path; we should take that right at the fork in the road or fuck it just get off the fucking road and run through the grass and see what else is out there. Why stick to one path; why not explore everything around us? Everything we believe in as a society, from the laws to marriage, it’s all make-believe. We can’t change the way the world runs now, it’s been going on for too long, but we can change our selves. There’s all kinds of wonderful things in the world that people don’t get to experience because they think they have found what they are “supposed to be” when we will never know what we are actually “supposed to be”. I mean sure, there are many people happy with their lives, but what if they explored the world more and could find something even more fulfilling? We just settle and never think that we can strive to become more than one thing or keep searching forever for what would make us the happiest. Why settle for “supposed to be”?
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3.10.11
congrats to the love of my life
finally, i have gotten a free moment to write. i've been really busy this past week. my boyfriend graduated from his school on Friday, very proud day. He has accomplished more than i think he realizes. when i met him he was 22 living at home, taking college classes through the base, and working. i'm pretty sure if he didn't move he would still being doing that every same thing. i think by him leaving home and starting his life without the security of his parents he has accomplished a lot. Went he first moved to the states he was spending money like crazy, now he's learned the value of a dollar, and even though it has taken many ramen noodle packages i think he has learned that even though it only cost five dollars more to get it in red, it's better to save that five extra dollars...haha. i'm very proud of David and i hope he realizes what he has accomplished, besides an Associates.
after David's graduation, on Saturday we went on a Subaru cruise through the mountains for a photo shot of the cars. The main picture is amazing, but i never want to sit in a car for that long ever again. Our friend Hawk got to see his first boob, some woman, in the passengers seat of a car that drove by, had her top hanging under her right boob and flashed everyone that was looking over the wall on the top of the car garage. All the guys seemed to be pretty excited about seeing it. Then after we were done with the cruise David, Hawk, and i drove up to a campsite outside of the city i live in and camped out for the night. It was nice to just relax after a long day, even though we spent most of the night looking for firewood in the dark. It ended up storming so we went into Hawks giant tent to chill, drink beer, and watch a movie...but David was so exhausted from the trip that we ended up going to bed before midnight. it got so cold during the night, especially with David hogging the two blankets, i was scared i was going to freeze to death. I woke up close to 8am and the boys were still out cold so i decided to go collect firewood since it was light outside. I ended up collecting a lot because the boys didn't get up for like two hours after me, so i was bored and didn't know what else to do. i then decided to try and light the fire without the Easy Light Log...epic fail. so i now know i should never get myself in a situation where i need to start a fire...haha. eventually the boys got up and started the fire and then we ate breakfast and decided to burn pretty much everything in the campfire. so we threw tarps, pillows, trash, and whatever else there was into the fire. i know....bad for the environment, but honestly it was fun.
I hate talking about my boyfriend...it makes me realize how much I really do miss him. I hate not living together like we used to...but i know we have it better than most couples...but it still sucks. :[
after David's graduation, on Saturday we went on a Subaru cruise through the mountains for a photo shot of the cars. The main picture is amazing, but i never want to sit in a car for that long ever again. Our friend Hawk got to see his first boob, some woman, in the passengers seat of a car that drove by, had her top hanging under her right boob and flashed everyone that was looking over the wall on the top of the car garage. All the guys seemed to be pretty excited about seeing it. Then after we were done with the cruise David, Hawk, and i drove up to a campsite outside of the city i live in and camped out for the night. It was nice to just relax after a long day, even though we spent most of the night looking for firewood in the dark. It ended up storming so we went into Hawks giant tent to chill, drink beer, and watch a movie...but David was so exhausted from the trip that we ended up going to bed before midnight. it got so cold during the night, especially with David hogging the two blankets, i was scared i was going to freeze to death. I woke up close to 8am and the boys were still out cold so i decided to go collect firewood since it was light outside. I ended up collecting a lot because the boys didn't get up for like two hours after me, so i was bored and didn't know what else to do. i then decided to try and light the fire without the Easy Light Log...epic fail. so i now know i should never get myself in a situation where i need to start a fire...haha. eventually the boys got up and started the fire and then we ate breakfast and decided to burn pretty much everything in the campfire. so we threw tarps, pillows, trash, and whatever else there was into the fire. i know....bad for the environment, but honestly it was fun.
I hate talking about my boyfriend...it makes me realize how much I really do miss him. I hate not living together like we used to...but i know we have it better than most couples...but it still sucks. :[
22.9.11
the beginning
well, i've finally decided to make a blog. it's been one of my debatable ideas for years, but i thought it could help with the stressful college life...now i just have to worry about finding the time to keep it update..haha. so i feel i should give, who ever is reading this, a bit more background about myself so here it goes.
i was born in Fairbanks, Alaska on March 16th. i was born into my wonderful military family which then constisted of my dad, Henry, my mom, Jan, and my older brother, Joe. Now I have a younger sister, Helene. from Alaska i began my journy of life as a military brat living in South Dakota, New York (where my mom, dad, and brother are from), Arizona (where my sister was born), Italy, and then I left home at eighteen to start college in Arizona. Italy is where i call home, i lived there for seven years and i did most of my growing up there and i met the love of my life there as well, David. I met David only a few months before leaving for college and on a whim he decided to move to Arizona with me. He lived with me in Flagstaff for the first six-seven months of us being stateside and then he moved down to the Phoenix area to begin his schooling. we see each other every weekend, Thursday-Sunday, so it's not bad at all. we have, literally, the perfect relationship and i couldn't ask for anyone better than him. okay, enough about mister amazing ;] and back to the rest of my life.
i'm a women and gender studies major with a minor in social work. now i know what you are probably thinking, OH MY GOD FEMINIST, and no that is not me at all. i mean, yes i am a feminist but i am not someone that will shove my ideals down your throat, i actually wont even bring up my feminist views unless someone really wants to talk about it. i feel its good for the world, for society, that people have their own thoughts, morals, values, and views about life. i respect even the nastiest of people because without them we wouldn't have people trying to make changes and bettering society, we would all just sit back and be content with our boring lives. okay, enough about that and on to the next point.
so since i left Italy my parents have moved to Singapore, which really sucks because they are so far away. i'm really close to my parents and they know everything about me...even the illegal stuff..haha. i think its good that parents know who their child is, i mean they did raise me. even though they aren't okay with some of my choices they do understand that i am reasponsible and i believe that experiences make a person and without experiences who are you? my parents would have to be the best in the whole world because they always alowed me to do my thing, i mean they gave me a curfew and i was also home on time because i knew that was the only way i could get away with coming home drunk or high without them catching me...haha. but never-the-less, i was always home on time and i think thats why my parents were so lenient with me, because i respected there rules. I mean, things weren't always peachy with my parents i did get caught doing many things i was told not to do, but those things helped me grow into the adult i am today. i'm very happy with who i am and where i'm at in life. i couldn't and wouldn't ask for a better life.
okay, thats enough for today <3
i was born in Fairbanks, Alaska on March 16th. i was born into my wonderful military family which then constisted of my dad, Henry, my mom, Jan, and my older brother, Joe. Now I have a younger sister, Helene. from Alaska i began my journy of life as a military brat living in South Dakota, New York (where my mom, dad, and brother are from), Arizona (where my sister was born), Italy, and then I left home at eighteen to start college in Arizona. Italy is where i call home, i lived there for seven years and i did most of my growing up there and i met the love of my life there as well, David. I met David only a few months before leaving for college and on a whim he decided to move to Arizona with me. He lived with me in Flagstaff for the first six-seven months of us being stateside and then he moved down to the Phoenix area to begin his schooling. we see each other every weekend, Thursday-Sunday, so it's not bad at all. we have, literally, the perfect relationship and i couldn't ask for anyone better than him. okay, enough about mister amazing ;] and back to the rest of my life.
i'm a women and gender studies major with a minor in social work. now i know what you are probably thinking, OH MY GOD FEMINIST, and no that is not me at all. i mean, yes i am a feminist but i am not someone that will shove my ideals down your throat, i actually wont even bring up my feminist views unless someone really wants to talk about it. i feel its good for the world, for society, that people have their own thoughts, morals, values, and views about life. i respect even the nastiest of people because without them we wouldn't have people trying to make changes and bettering society, we would all just sit back and be content with our boring lives. okay, enough about that and on to the next point.
so since i left Italy my parents have moved to Singapore, which really sucks because they are so far away. i'm really close to my parents and they know everything about me...even the illegal stuff..haha. i think its good that parents know who their child is, i mean they did raise me. even though they aren't okay with some of my choices they do understand that i am reasponsible and i believe that experiences make a person and without experiences who are you? my parents would have to be the best in the whole world because they always alowed me to do my thing, i mean they gave me a curfew and i was also home on time because i knew that was the only way i could get away with coming home drunk or high without them catching me...haha. but never-the-less, i was always home on time and i think thats why my parents were so lenient with me, because i respected there rules. I mean, things weren't always peachy with my parents i did get caught doing many things i was told not to do, but those things helped me grow into the adult i am today. i'm very happy with who i am and where i'm at in life. i couldn't and wouldn't ask for a better life.
okay, thats enough for today <3
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